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da girl/yours truly/i have moved on to read the library bks i borrowed on fri. (havent finishd e chinese bk but hello, library bks have priority cos i have to return them) went out on fri (14/5/10) with gabby (L)(L)(L) aft chem paper, that was the day i was finally FREE! my last paper (chemistry) ended at 10.01am then i rushed to bishan mrt/J8, changed out of my sch u and met my bestest friend on the planet (when i was P6) & watched "the last song" with her at 11.30am, then went to e food court and i ate black carrot cake due to my expandable stomach. gabby was too full fr popcorn to eat so i ate and we talked until she was hungry, then she bought beef noodles and she ate while we continued talking. chatted for abt 3-4 hrs i think (Y) then went to e library and i borrowed bks using her ez-link card. woots~ awesome day.

had chinese tuition aft that, 我用了华语和王老师沟通 for 1 and a half hrs. and the Nobel Prize of 2010 goes to... CLARICE!!! hahaha but it's okay, i like chinese tuition and i dont mind talking to him to improve my oral skills. it was quite fun cos we jus talked abt various topics and i didn need to do handwritten practice (thank God)

i'm not really sry that i havent been posting bcos every time i do it's a super long post. plus, that way i dont waste so much time on blogging. which is good.

i have to admit that right now, my spiritual life is in limbo. like, i dont really know if God exists anymore. as in, i know he does, but maybe not for me, you know? i've never heard him speak to me. but he has answered some of my prayers and he's actually a great Comforter. so i'm going to keep believing in what's not seen bcos honestly i'm too scared to do exams without him and also bcos he's been faithful before and God's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow right? so i pray that he has his reasons for his silence, and that's he's forever my father in heaven, watching over me. i was seriously planning to cut the religious stuff completely, but ytd sister gwen said this and it really struck me. it's sth like this but not quite it. "God is faithful to me, and He is faithful to you too. Because even though my situation is different from yours, *and here i thought: yeah, u have no idea how lucky u are bcos God loves you but not me* GOD IS THE SAME." (reread e sentence without the part in asterisks if u need to) it really struck me that God is the same to all of us. i dont know how i managed to grasp that fact when i'd been struggling with it forever. i guess it has to be God then? cos honestly usually when sister gwen preaches, i am not her biggest fan. but yesterday i was, bcos i heard a lot of truth in her words. another sentence she talked abt was something like "Commitment to God does not depend on your feelings", and e truth in that hit me too.

okay little kids, we shall move on to how my exams went. (reporting in chronological order) HCL paper 1 was okay i guess? i think i may have done better for 公函 than for 报章报道, which is sad cos e latter carries more marks. finished e paper, duh. EL paper 1 was okay, could have been better if i had more time, but i finished it, duh. social studies was okay cos wat i studied came out (that always happens for ss and geog, but never history, which is my worst humanities bcos of the aforementioned reason) but didn manage to finish it. had 3 more paras to go, but i made sure those were e paras which carried e least marks so i dont feel so bad. EL paper 2 was okay. finished it, duh. then came e evil pure geog. everything i studied came out, but i wrote e whole chunk abt beaches, finished e whole paper and then realized i was supposed to talk abt headlands and bays. didn manage to finish changing it ): and i learned headlands and bays!!! oh well. A Math was terrible. lost abt 15 marks fr undone qns alone. and that's not counting all e careless mistakes i'd probably make due to my lack of time for checking. A Math is supposed to be my best subject, and i didn practise enough for it. srsly upset abt this paper. e math was okay, had a few qns that were not easy (duh) and i didn finish e tangent for e graph, but that's okay, i always get it wrong anyway. lost 4 marks for qns i didn know how to do, including e tangent. physics, didn draw my graph, but that's only 3 marks. quite sad abt it too, though. HCL paper 2 was fine! actually managed to finish e paper for e 1st time in a very long while! didn quite understand e last passage, but at least i finishd e paper and put in my best. bio was okay, i finished it (thank God) but i think i got 1 qn wrong. small price to pay for finishing e paper, though. elec history was terrible. ms ho told us to study collectivisation, so most ppl learned chap 3-4 like crazy (including me) for e essays and didn really touch chap 2. of course, history hates me, so both essays came out on chap 2. life sucks. get over it. i thank God that i read textbook and e power pack for chap 2 and at least roughly knew e points, though. some of my classmates were clueless. last paper was chem, as i'd mentioned. wasnt able to finish, lost abt 6 marks. disappointed, cos if i had more time i would have done the "OR" question instead of e "EITHER" question and gotten way higher cos i knew how to do those. sigh. overall, i'm quite upset with MYEs. hopefully e teachers are lenient this time round, and i stil get those As. sigh...

oh well, this is a pretty long post. shall go do sth else now!

Quote 2 remember: Death cannot stop true love, it can only delay it for a little while.

~thx 4 reading!~